I. Prodrome (9 minutes)
II. Delusions (2 minutes)
III. Delirium (4 minutes)
IV. Mania (1.5 minutes)
V. Clarity (10 minutes)
Total Duration: 25 minutes
s, fl, cl, vln, vc, pno
This five movement chamber piece explores the darkest corners of the human psyche. You will hear seemingly random text dispersed throughout the first movement, “Prodrome” (meaning the onset of a disease), text that may not even make logical sense at first listen, however, the words are not intended to tell a coherent story from start to finish, but rather add to the atmospheric quality while pushing the piece forward. In the final movement, the text returns in a new context. My intent is for the listener to experience the text in a completely different light in the final movement when compared to their experience of hearing it for the first time, thus, the title of the fifth movement, “Clarity.”
The statements used are a collection of quotes taken from different infamous serial killers throughout history including; David Berkowitz, the “Axeman”, “Zodiac”, Charles Manson, Albert Fish, Jeffrey Dahmer, and Ted Bundy. I have always been drawn to the macabre, though my fascination with these depraved figures stems more from my fascination with the human psyche and mental state, and how individuals could be capable of committing such heinous crimes. It is not my intention to draw attention to such individuals, but more so to explore the different stages typically found in psychosis. The figures themselves are irrelevant. The text itself is what I am more interested in exploiting within this composition.
Each movement explores a new stage in this mental disorder, becoming more and more unhinged as the piece progresses. Though each movement has a unique and individual sound, motives and other connections are still present. The piece is a journey that I wanted to share with others, whether listeners find the journey itself enjoyable is out of my control.
"In this hole lives the wicked king" "For I am in close relationship with the angel of death" "Peekaboo! You are doomed" "Paranoia is just total awareness" "None of us are saints" "...sick, pathetic, miserable life story..." "You feel the last bit of breathe leave their body. Your'e looking into their eyes. A person in that situation is God." "I want to master life and death"